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beautiful gratitude

mark — Mon, 07 May 2012 15:30:12 +0000

grateful for this beautiful day. when progress is just wondering how many hours will pass before compulsions kick in, instead of even thinking about it causing despair. is that progress? it’s a beautiful day in the neighborhood. grateful the hound is not barking incessantly, wouldn’t want to disturb the rabbits. grateful I woke up in only little pain instead of a lot. grateful ram dass is still doing what he does, on maui no less. grateful I didn’t go get some really bad food for breakfast. now that’s beautiful.

tired gratitiude

mark — Wed, 02 May 2012 16:27:07 +0000

through exhaustion i can be grateful for:

alive another day
beautiful blue sky
that I recognize I am mortal
for Peg, that i get to love her.
for the hound, he’s such a rascal
this coffee
breath
willingness to continue
that i can work from home

saturday morning gratitude

mark — Sat, 14 Apr 2012 16:48:30 +0000

another day of life
have food
have shelter
a nice cup of coffee
someone who loves me
a wonderful pooch
a way forward even if I don’t like it
I’m sober

Everything Is a Present

mark — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 15:05:36 +0000

12 minutes well spent:

Video from KarmaTube

glorious gratitude

mark — Fri, 09 Mar 2012 16:19:40 +0000

Last night I saw the Aurora Borealis for the first time. Northern lights. Thank you universe for the privilege of witnessing this rare display. How lucky I am.

simple gratitude

mark — Sat, 18 Feb 2012 18:39:52 +0000

grateful and thankful for having food to eat.
grateful and thankful for having clothes to wear.
grateful and thankful for having a roof over my head.
grateful and thankful for the love in my life.
grateful for the pooch. and his smile.
grateful for the willingness to move forward.
grateful for another day of life.
grateful for the awareness I possess.

today’s gratitiude

mark — Fri, 10 Feb 2012 14:31:53 +0000

with the pain of this isn’t what I was hoping for, this isn’t what I want, comes being grateful for what my life is today. the kind of gratitude that lets go of a need for change in this moment. the pain of knowing that how I am has harmed another gnaws at me.

grateful I have enough to eat
grateful I have shelter
grateful I have relative health
grateful I have a partner who loves me very much
grateful I get to love her
grateful I have an opportunity to make at least some very small positive difference in the world.
grateful I’ve had the opportunities given to me
grateful I’m sober and don’t want to be intoxicated.
grateful I was able to get sober and stay that way for 27 years.
grateful I have clothes to wear and a car to drive
grateful to be alive another day

grateful I see the apparent effects of choice

mark — Mon, 06 Feb 2012 15:38:18 +0000

How much do I choose my life? Who knows, but how I handle that question does affect my life. And I keep forgetting that. If I choose to eat a coffee cake, the outcome and path of my life are different than if I drink raw juice instead. Total choice and total predetermination both seem naíve and short-sighted. I do see when I choose differently than what I intend for myself, it takes the wind out of my sails. that is worth taking notice of. I’m grateful I can see that. Awake enough to see that. That puts a little wind back in my sails.

peaceful gratitude

mark — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 20:31:56 +0000

feeling at peace this morning for no particular reason. grateful for that.

grateful I was able to shop at the market and get fresh vegetables. the day may come when that will be a luxury. grateful to all the people who worked to grow and transport the food. the clerk helped me by going in the back and getting some larger bags of carrots. appreciating his enthusiasm for his job.

still breathing another day, another chance to live.

getting back up

mark — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 15:47:31 +0000

“If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call “failure” is not the falling down, but the staying down.” —Mary Pickford

Today, I’ll pick myself up again. fall 7 times, get up 8. Maybe I needed to learn that even if I do fall and break and can get up again and go.